WHO is in charge...?

I have found life with PEOPLE in charge particularly harsh, and very intolerable, so much so that I wanted to exit life as quickly as possible when I realised that growing up and being "responsible" [adult talk for shut-your-mouth-and-take-it-like-a-dog-being-kicked-in-the-belly-or-you-wont-get-fed-scraps-from-the-high-table] meant more of the same... .


Then God happened... yeah, I know how it sounds by now, but He did, and yeah, I did ask Him what He wanted of me, and He DID say that I ought to be myself.


And I HATE compromise. I hated having my photo taken for my ID... I remember that I became a minor record in that I am probably the ONLY person who had his photo, at sixteen, taken twice, because in one I was like a barbie doll [the kind that closes their eyes when horizontal but open them when vertical?] but one of my eyes was only half open while the other was supported by a frown, to remain in a state of almost constant daze...yeah, i was seriously depressed and i had no idea what a sight i must have looked, with my head lolling to one side like an over-sized jug carried by a frail girl... i never understood that the jokes about my head had nothing to do with my deep-set eyes but with the size, and the way I carried myself as though I wanted the head to rest on my shoulder because it was too heavy for my neck!

Up till today, my left shoulder is higher than my right, despite vigorous attempts practising Tai Chi to correct a childhood defect for over-compensation by my body in trying to balance the rest of me so that I could walk without wobbling.


Everything is tied up in red tape, and no one can go anywhere unless he or she has someone else's permission, and states exhaustively the purpose, the duration and the finances for the visit.


I hated all that, and so, when I began to try to prove that God REALLY created the world and everything in it is His, and should be so acknowledged, I saw the amounts of wading through all the disgusting time-consuming and pointless issues like citizenship...and finance, and I truly thought that THIS could never be done...not because the task was impossible, but because THE PEOPLE were impossible.


Till God reminded me just WHO is in charge.


So, I get to go where I want, when I want, relying simply on His word: "No weapon that is forged against you shall prosper; you shall refute every tongue that rises against you in judgement. This is the heritage of MY servants, and their righteousness comes from ME".

So, maybe someone wants to challenge God and demand that I have a passport to walk around MY Father's property? Go ahead. You think I am mad, wait till you tangle with The Living God!!!