Though I do not actually OWE anyone an explanation, I hate loose ends so I will "explain" why I have been tearing up things the way I have been the past few weeks and why NOW I am finally ready to get to grips with "COUNTING NUMBERS"...
As I have pointed out, my work focuses mainly on God, but not "directly" on Him...rather I am more concerned about the ...obstructions that keep people from seeing Him as He is, and for me, the major one has...[or "ones" have] been The Holy Spirit [and Christ]...for the simple reason that there is some endorsement from God on them, and they have both actually overstepped the boundaries.
Now, when I started looking into God's word, I had a major disadvantage, someone over my shoulder talling me how to do what he had no idea of in a manner that he thought would suit convention best...someone who exercised arrogant power to make sure I could not do as I intended simply because he thought he knew best. He would divert something that I meant for God to Himself, and I was getting really clueless as to how to get rid of Him, and wondering why God hated me so much He would do this to me... when God Himself stepped in and started shutting The Holy Spirit up.
First, I wanted to solve The Goldbach Conjecture for the money so that I could discharge my "debt" to my mother, but THS wanted me to finish school because to him "honour your father and mother" meant "obey them and put yourself on hold till you do everything they expect...then you can be a responsible adult".
I was about to quit when, one day, slumped and hopeless, God said, "Try the Falco effect", and well, as I said, I had a lessening of pressure from THS and I actually went ahead and progressed to "almost" solving the Conjecture, using a concept I called "FALCO", but then I quit because...well, because THS would calim credit if I did, and I would never get rid of him.
So, one other day, getting steadily more depressed, I asked God, without actually thinking about it first, "God, What do You want of me?!!!", and He answered, "Be yourself", and my immediate reaction was that I could never be free to be "me" if I had THS riding over everything I did, and that He was telling me the impossible... telling me to be me, when every action I took was second guessed and vetoed by an uninvited and arrogant guest, based on what he assumed were proper grounds for this action.
So, I decided to leave everything and just decide to die, but well, it never worked. I have been the victim of such petty and vengeful attacks by THS just to "teach me to behave" and if I cared much, I would have hated Him, but you see, the thing about weathering the barrage of attacks from him is that, with time, I learnt to hide what I think, and start to outsmart him, by gradually and...of necessity... subtly cutting the ground from under him.
Till I reached a point where focusing on the mundane things like what people think and what they want me to be started really interfering in my life I could not carry on...at which point God agains stepped in and said that I ought to find a way to get him peroccupied with something else. And so I searched Scripture, and found out that The Holy Spirit likes dry areas, and I was so dry, so...dead to everything, so uncommitted, he felt right at home.
Which is why I played that trick on him when he as usual thought to steer me in a particular direction, and ended up getting him to admit that he ws with me for the long haul...the FIRST time THe Holy Spirit...in all history, has EVER done that. He said he would NEVER leave, and that was, for me, game, set and match. So, I gave him a task, get me ten girls, the ten I have seen and appreciated, and keep them without trying to bring me their thoughts or their concerns, and you get to stay...if not, then you are out.
The key, of course, was in the statement that God sapoke to Zechariah when he was talking of the building of the temple...the "prophet" Zechariah, in the message to Zerubbabel..." Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the God of War".
Now, I wanted the Holy Spirit OUT of my mind, and we ALL know, if we admit it, that if someone says "by" then it is the same as saying "NOT through"... think of the phrases "heart by-pass", "by-stander" et.c, and you realise that God was saying that a person OUGHT to use his power and his might and NOT include The Holy Spirit if he wants change...the exact opposite of what happens in churces nowadays where, to get change, one "speaks in tongue" for 15 minutes and expects permanent change after waging a "spiritual battle" somewhere.
That type of hogwash is no different from focusing on one's "inner self" like in yoga or T'ai Chi Chuan, or other Oriental martial arts which have the "added dimension" of causing your "mind" to overcome matter.
Get rid of the Bullshit and focus on the reality, that is my motto, so, as I said, I am now about to REALLY begin what I promised, now that the one who was busy confounding everthing I did is engaged in his first ever commitment, and as such is unable to interfere.
Which means, I am going to start making it plain why I am going to get paid US$250m or I take everything down the drain, everything that makes up what is known as civilisation today...
Oh, and as for the women...well, they will probably each get a chance to read this, and my only statement to them is: "It REALLY is your choice. I am neither emotionally capable of forcing you to come, nor to repel you if you do, but the reason why in every case both I and The Holy Spirit zoned in on you...from different viewpoints, its true, is that individually you are "unique", and if he likes you then I am free to do as I please...in a sense, you each are the embodiment of HIS first ever attachment...or lack of detachment... .So come, go, your choice"
As I have pointed out, my work focuses mainly on God, but not "directly" on Him...rather I am more concerned about the ...obstructions that keep people from seeing Him as He is, and for me, the major one has...[or "ones" have] been The Holy Spirit [and Christ]...for the simple reason that there is some endorsement from God on them, and they have both actually overstepped the boundaries.
Now, when I started looking into God's word, I had a major disadvantage, someone over my shoulder talling me how to do what he had no idea of in a manner that he thought would suit convention best...someone who exercised arrogant power to make sure I could not do as I intended simply because he thought he knew best. He would divert something that I meant for God to Himself, and I was getting really clueless as to how to get rid of Him, and wondering why God hated me so much He would do this to me... when God Himself stepped in and started shutting The Holy Spirit up.
First, I wanted to solve The Goldbach Conjecture for the money so that I could discharge my "debt" to my mother, but THS wanted me to finish school because to him "honour your father and mother" meant "obey them and put yourself on hold till you do everything they expect...then you can be a responsible adult".
I was about to quit when, one day, slumped and hopeless, God said, "Try the Falco effect", and well, as I said, I had a lessening of pressure from THS and I actually went ahead and progressed to "almost" solving the Conjecture, using a concept I called "FALCO", but then I quit because...well, because THS would calim credit if I did, and I would never get rid of him.
So, one other day, getting steadily more depressed, I asked God, without actually thinking about it first, "God, What do You want of me?!!!", and He answered, "Be yourself", and my immediate reaction was that I could never be free to be "me" if I had THS riding over everything I did, and that He was telling me the impossible... telling me to be me, when every action I took was second guessed and vetoed by an uninvited and arrogant guest, based on what he assumed were proper grounds for this action.
So, I decided to leave everything and just decide to die, but well, it never worked. I have been the victim of such petty and vengeful attacks by THS just to "teach me to behave" and if I cared much, I would have hated Him, but you see, the thing about weathering the barrage of attacks from him is that, with time, I learnt to hide what I think, and start to outsmart him, by gradually and...of necessity... subtly cutting the ground from under him.
Till I reached a point where focusing on the mundane things like what people think and what they want me to be started really interfering in my life I could not carry on...at which point God agains stepped in and said that I ought to find a way to get him peroccupied with something else. And so I searched Scripture, and found out that The Holy Spirit likes dry areas, and I was so dry, so...dead to everything, so uncommitted, he felt right at home.
Which is why I played that trick on him when he as usual thought to steer me in a particular direction, and ended up getting him to admit that he ws with me for the long haul...the FIRST time THe Holy Spirit...in all history, has EVER done that. He said he would NEVER leave, and that was, for me, game, set and match. So, I gave him a task, get me ten girls, the ten I have seen and appreciated, and keep them without trying to bring me their thoughts or their concerns, and you get to stay...if not, then you are out.
The key, of course, was in the statement that God sapoke to Zechariah when he was talking of the building of the temple...the "prophet" Zechariah, in the message to Zerubbabel..." Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit, says the God of War".
Now, I wanted the Holy Spirit OUT of my mind, and we ALL know, if we admit it, that if someone says "by" then it is the same as saying "NOT through"... think of the phrases "heart by-pass", "by-stander" et.c, and you realise that God was saying that a person OUGHT to use his power and his might and NOT include The Holy Spirit if he wants change...the exact opposite of what happens in churces nowadays where, to get change, one "speaks in tongue" for 15 minutes and expects permanent change after waging a "spiritual battle" somewhere.
That type of hogwash is no different from focusing on one's "inner self" like in yoga or T'ai Chi Chuan, or other Oriental martial arts which have the "added dimension" of causing your "mind" to overcome matter.
Get rid of the Bullshit and focus on the reality, that is my motto, so, as I said, I am now about to REALLY begin what I promised, now that the one who was busy confounding everthing I did is engaged in his first ever commitment, and as such is unable to interfere.
Which means, I am going to start making it plain why I am going to get paid US$250m or I take everything down the drain, everything that makes up what is known as civilisation today...
Oh, and as for the women...well, they will probably each get a chance to read this, and my only statement to them is: "It REALLY is your choice. I am neither emotionally capable of forcing you to come, nor to repel you if you do, but the reason why in every case both I and The Holy Spirit zoned in on you...from different viewpoints, its true, is that individually you are "unique", and if he likes you then I am free to do as I please...in a sense, you each are the embodiment of HIS first ever attachment...or lack of detachment... .So come, go, your choice"
