So God tells me that I will not die...and straight away I want to see if that is true, and I try to die, to test His word. [I have nothing better on my agenda] and, eventually, when I hear the words of the song by Sean Kingston, about how beautiful girls will have you suicidal when they say it is over, I find myself a...OK, she had false teeth, but her ass was not too bad...OK, it looked like it was upside down, but then...OK, so she was available, and so I mistreated her and everything, but she would not SAY, it is over, she seemed to like it that way...so I engineered things so that it would seem like I had been rejected, and tried to really die....everything else was so slow, and thus, ended up at Valkenberg, where to my surprise, this other girl did not seem to mind that I was keeping up the pretense of being a heart-broken lovesick person, and that instead of walking away, she got me to admit that the girl was 'net a bitch', and I was more worried about whether I had a right to be alive as opposed to, say, my mother, so I was ducking the blow as long as I could.
Now, I am as low on the food-chain as I can be, and I wonder, therefore why someone so well put together as she is would look at me and not wince, and actually SEEM...hey, she is a psychologist, so she should be quite high on the intellectual totem pole... to LOOK UP to me.
She must be crazy, I conclude. But then all these other beautiful women start falling out the woodwork and all seem to be more than normally 'aware' of me, and it just so happens that they do so around the time I am at a crisis about 'rights' to life, and they all just act like I am the Emperor or something. OK, so I am ugly, and OK, I am fierce to look at, but when one of them comes up near where I stay, and offers me not her face to look at but her boobs, then her ass, I go, "Duh, she making fun o' me? She my mudder or what? Why not der face?", and so, I have to go back to the word of God as applies to natural things, and I re-call Him saying, "...nevertheless, your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you",
and so the question of 'equality' does not arise there.
Then I go, waidaminute,
if YOU said it would be "nevertheless", then it is 'natural' and instantaneous and constant that a woman would look up to a certain man, without even the least co-ercion on his part!
So, of course, that means that as long as there are men and women walking all over this planet, there will be a certain man which, once he comes into a certain woman;s field of vision, will be instantly her choice of Lord, and she will want him to 'accept' her, as she is, not beguile him, or try to make herself look like she is not.
Duh! I tink I goddat!
Then comes the next logical step. It means dat, since God is a constant ...eh...Guy..., that the natural attraction of the woman for her man would not only be never less, BUT the man and woman thing is supposed to be eternal.
Duh? But Christ said dat dere is a new life, in duh spirit?
But then, Christ also SAID dut he would be three days and three nights dead and would be resurrected on the third day. I count. Dead Friday afternoon around three, and up just after Sunday morning...hardly three days AND three nights, and the time he dies is de only time he let go control. So God rebukes him by NOT allowing him the free reign he wanted. So, Christ wrong, he dont count!
Holy Spirit wrong, he dont count.
God not one of many words, God brief, succint, terse, explicit, deep, not one to waste time with many words, because He not want to create mind trap for man, but for man to reason things through. Revelation wrong...tooo many conflicts: Christ right, Christ for God, Christ King, God king, God only King, then other kings, but Christ somehow linchpin...hmmm, DAT is mind control.
Hey, but God also say, in ten commandments, you shall not kill, but I say, listen gimme reason NOT to kill, and I will not. Someone try to kill me, I kill back. Dis little woman, dis 'gwai-loh', Michelle, she try kill my dreams, so I out to kill her, but I will wlak away if she come to her senses and not ever try show her face near me again, course I do not like interference. Why should I lie down and have someone take away my right to life.
So, I go, "duh, God, so You love ME den? More dan any other person alive or in all creation den? Because You make my enemies Your enemies and I make Your enemies my enemies, since dey not understand You, and I unnerstand You and You unnerstand me."
So, dat make me the Don on dis planet den, de Big Fish who Walks-With-God, and does summary execution if he so wishes? And so, I am not bound by any laws den. I like it! Now, lets do sumting about Your enemies, because I can not bear to see You treated so by arrogant...dust!
Now, I am as low on the food-chain as I can be, and I wonder, therefore why someone so well put together as she is would look at me and not wince, and actually SEEM...hey, she is a psychologist, so she should be quite high on the intellectual totem pole... to LOOK UP to me.
She must be crazy, I conclude. But then all these other beautiful women start falling out the woodwork and all seem to be more than normally 'aware' of me, and it just so happens that they do so around the time I am at a crisis about 'rights' to life, and they all just act like I am the Emperor or something. OK, so I am ugly, and OK, I am fierce to look at, but when one of them comes up near where I stay, and offers me not her face to look at but her boobs, then her ass, I go, "Duh, she making fun o' me? She my mudder or what? Why not der face?", and so, I have to go back to the word of God as applies to natural things, and I re-call Him saying, "...nevertheless, your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you",
and so the question of 'equality' does not arise there.
Then I go, waidaminute,
if YOU said it would be "nevertheless", then it is 'natural' and instantaneous and constant that a woman would look up to a certain man, without even the least co-ercion on his part!
So, of course, that means that as long as there are men and women walking all over this planet, there will be a certain man which, once he comes into a certain woman;s field of vision, will be instantly her choice of Lord, and she will want him to 'accept' her, as she is, not beguile him, or try to make herself look like she is not.
Duh! I tink I goddat!
Then comes the next logical step. It means dat, since God is a constant ...eh...Guy..., that the natural attraction of the woman for her man would not only be never less, BUT the man and woman thing is supposed to be eternal.
Duh? But Christ said dat dere is a new life, in duh spirit?
But then, Christ also SAID dut he would be three days and three nights dead and would be resurrected on the third day. I count. Dead Friday afternoon around three, and up just after Sunday morning...hardly three days AND three nights, and the time he dies is de only time he let go control. So God rebukes him by NOT allowing him the free reign he wanted. So, Christ wrong, he dont count!
Holy Spirit wrong, he dont count.
God not one of many words, God brief, succint, terse, explicit, deep, not one to waste time with many words, because He not want to create mind trap for man, but for man to reason things through. Revelation wrong...tooo many conflicts: Christ right, Christ for God, Christ King, God king, God only King, then other kings, but Christ somehow linchpin...hmmm, DAT is mind control.
Hey, but God also say, in ten commandments, you shall not kill, but I say, listen gimme reason NOT to kill, and I will not. Someone try to kill me, I kill back. Dis little woman, dis 'gwai-loh', Michelle, she try kill my dreams, so I out to kill her, but I will wlak away if she come to her senses and not ever try show her face near me again, course I do not like interference. Why should I lie down and have someone take away my right to life.
So, I go, "duh, God, so You love ME den? More dan any other person alive or in all creation den? Because You make my enemies Your enemies and I make Your enemies my enemies, since dey not understand You, and I unnerstand You and You unnerstand me."
So, dat make me the Don on dis planet den, de Big Fish who Walks-With-God, and does summary execution if he so wishes? And so, I am not bound by any laws den. I like it! Now, lets do sumting about Your enemies, because I can not bear to see You treated so by arrogant...dust!
