Anyone seeing my posts for the past few weeks will have noticed that I was bust trying out various explanations from both Scripture and my personal life about just WHY The Holy Spirit was hanging around me.
I was way out of course. Totally clueless as to what was really happening, because I broke my own cardinal rule that I live by, and "made an assumption" where He was concerned.
So, it was only when I had finished yesterday's post and was on my way back to my place that I realised the implications of my meeting the leggy, dishy blonde and my asking "Can I?" to Him, and He reminding me that I would never EVER be alone, but He would be there that I went, "Hey, wait a minute? Aren't You supposed to fill up every person and stuff?That means You will be with me but also with everybody else, right?"
I thought I would be just one of many, so well, it would not be too bad. It could be worse; He could be GONE... .
That was when He took me back to the begining, to the time when I first wanted to die. Because that time I had to apply "Pythagoras' Theorem" in "real life" at a bridge building competition that I and other Thornhill High School Physics students attended at the posh Midlands Christian College, in 2000.
Now, I knew the myth of the Theorem, and why it worked for all the wrong reasons, but I never thought the day would come when I would be thrust into a situation where I had to USE the theory to get answers, till we, as the standby B-Team, had to make a matchwood bridge without any preparation whatsoever.
So we sketched the model, found out what type we liked, and then had to find the dimensions. That was where I came in, in calculating the angles, using both the cosine rule and Pythagoras' Theorem.
I walked into it, and it was only when I was in the midst of the calculations that I ...metaphorically...looked up, and said to Him, "Oh, so THIS is why You came? I thought it was because of me, but it appears You saw that I could be of use in showing just why this is wrong"... and from that day, I wanted to die. I felt used, and so worthless, so bereft of everything that made life meaningful.
So, yesterday was a wake up call, and I wanted to get to the bottom of it all, and I realised i had made my number one assumption by not paying attention to what comes after the most well-known verse in the Bible...
"In the begining God Created the heavens and the earth"
And the earth was formless and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep, And The Spirit of God hovered over the face of the waters.
Now, THINK about this for a minute. He was NOT in the waters, but over them, and He 'hovered'. Kind of like a bird...the dove that was sent from the ark and could find no rest for her foot because the earth was wet? The Dove who came "up ON" Christ and rested but then was COMMITTED into the hands of The Father when Christ hung on the cross?
Why did He hover. Because He is the Ultimate Maverick... He operates outside of God's normal channels, and when God made the first man, He said, "Let Us make man OUT OF Our image, and IN Our likeness, and let THEM have dominion... ".
This was God the Father and His Only Son, The word, and THEY made man out of the dust, and then made him like Them in the sense that God breathed His Spirit on the man and He became a living being. But the man was NOT supposed to be a "father", because The Holy Spirit wanted someone who did NOT want to be a parent so He could be in that person.
Anyway, the man did his thing, and The Holy Spirit was no longer IN him but ON him, and He would drift for 6 thousand years from one person to another, from group to group, resting a liitle on someone then carrying on when the person returned to dust.
Then I, with my perfect recall, was born, and could not forget just why i was unwelcome, and He knew I could not pretend that I was welcome, nor want to inflict my own horror on anyone else, and so He came, and for the first time since Adam fell, He had a home IN someone, and now the Scripture came true that said, "THEY" would have "Dominion"...the man and The Spirit of God. The Two-in-one.
Which is why THAT Scripture says, "I will pour OUT My Spirit on all Flesh"; i.e., He ould no longer be ON anyone else, since He has no need to drift...and neither would I have to seek rest elsewher because He has given my heart a home...which is why He said Him and I would NEVER be apart...nor would He be shared with anyone else. Ever.
And so what does that mean? Well, look at it this way. Christ said that he ...not THEY... but he, who believes, out of HIS belly shall flow "rivers" of living waters, and well, being a practical man, I thought, "OK, how do waters flow out of a belly"...Ah, the natural way, of course!
Lucky women! Since it is "rivers", then it means that I am entitled to have more than "one" woman, and since I have a penchant for white chicks, I am thinking, ...ummm, how about ten? Sexy babes to satisfy with "living waters", for ever?
Ah, as for the rest of Creation, there is some hidden manna, some waters of life, some tree of life, but I get to have The Holy Spirit...all to myself, as the LAST EVER!
I love HIM!
I was way out of course. Totally clueless as to what was really happening, because I broke my own cardinal rule that I live by, and "made an assumption" where He was concerned.
So, it was only when I had finished yesterday's post and was on my way back to my place that I realised the implications of my meeting the leggy, dishy blonde and my asking "Can I?" to Him, and He reminding me that I would never EVER be alone, but He would be there that I went, "Hey, wait a minute? Aren't You supposed to fill up every person and stuff?That means You will be with me but also with everybody else, right?"
I thought I would be just one of many, so well, it would not be too bad. It could be worse; He could be GONE... .
That was when He took me back to the begining, to the time when I first wanted to die. Because that time I had to apply "Pythagoras' Theorem" in "real life" at a bridge building competition that I and other Thornhill High School Physics students attended at the posh Midlands Christian College, in 2000.
Now, I knew the myth of the Theorem, and why it worked for all the wrong reasons, but I never thought the day would come when I would be thrust into a situation where I had to USE the theory to get answers, till we, as the standby B-Team, had to make a matchwood bridge without any preparation whatsoever.
So we sketched the model, found out what type we liked, and then had to find the dimensions. That was where I came in, in calculating the angles, using both the cosine rule and Pythagoras' Theorem.
I walked into it, and it was only when I was in the midst of the calculations that I ...metaphorically...looked up, and said to Him, "Oh, so THIS is why You came? I thought it was because of me, but it appears You saw that I could be of use in showing just why this is wrong"... and from that day, I wanted to die. I felt used, and so worthless, so bereft of everything that made life meaningful.
So, yesterday was a wake up call, and I wanted to get to the bottom of it all, and I realised i had made my number one assumption by not paying attention to what comes after the most well-known verse in the Bible...
"In the begining God Created the heavens and the earth"
And the earth was formless and void, and darkness was upon the face of the deep, And The Spirit of God hovered over the face of the waters.
Now, THINK about this for a minute. He was NOT in the waters, but over them, and He 'hovered'. Kind of like a bird...the dove that was sent from the ark and could find no rest for her foot because the earth was wet? The Dove who came "up ON" Christ and rested but then was COMMITTED into the hands of The Father when Christ hung on the cross?
Why did He hover. Because He is the Ultimate Maverick... He operates outside of God's normal channels, and when God made the first man, He said, "Let Us make man OUT OF Our image, and IN Our likeness, and let THEM have dominion... ".
This was God the Father and His Only Son, The word, and THEY made man out of the dust, and then made him like Them in the sense that God breathed His Spirit on the man and He became a living being. But the man was NOT supposed to be a "father", because The Holy Spirit wanted someone who did NOT want to be a parent so He could be in that person.
Anyway, the man did his thing, and The Holy Spirit was no longer IN him but ON him, and He would drift for 6 thousand years from one person to another, from group to group, resting a liitle on someone then carrying on when the person returned to dust.
Then I, with my perfect recall, was born, and could not forget just why i was unwelcome, and He knew I could not pretend that I was welcome, nor want to inflict my own horror on anyone else, and so He came, and for the first time since Adam fell, He had a home IN someone, and now the Scripture came true that said, "THEY" would have "Dominion"...the man and The Spirit of God. The Two-in-one.
Which is why THAT Scripture says, "I will pour OUT My Spirit on all Flesh"; i.e., He ould no longer be ON anyone else, since He has no need to drift...and neither would I have to seek rest elsewher because He has given my heart a home...which is why He said Him and I would NEVER be apart...nor would He be shared with anyone else. Ever.
And so what does that mean? Well, look at it this way. Christ said that he ...not THEY... but he, who believes, out of HIS belly shall flow "rivers" of living waters, and well, being a practical man, I thought, "OK, how do waters flow out of a belly"...Ah, the natural way, of course!
Lucky women! Since it is "rivers", then it means that I am entitled to have more than "one" woman, and since I have a penchant for white chicks, I am thinking, ...ummm, how about ten? Sexy babes to satisfy with "living waters", for ever?
Ah, as for the rest of Creation, there is some hidden manna, some waters of life, some tree of life, but I get to have The Holy Spirit...all to myself, as the LAST EVER!
I love HIM!
