The door is open and The Warrior walks in.For the first time ever He appears uncertain of Himself, and He walks over to where His adversary/friend is seating, at a bare table, his hands NOT, for the first time, on ... himself(i.e., under the table). The Warrior also does not have His trademark revolving machine gun, but the bandoliers are still strapped to His chest, and His voice, shorn of all the glamour of "presence" is like what you would expect to hear before a person prounces the words "Then die!" as he draws his sword. Think Bounty Killer, if you are a reggae fan
His hands though are empty, and He stands before the first person He has been unable to bend to His will, or get to do what He wants regardless of his own inclinations.
On the other hand, the person He faces can be described by any of the words, "psychotic, borderline psychopath, berserk,..."et.c., and HIS voice has ever present undertones of humour in it, and he is hyperactive... but, curiously, cold. HIS voice sound like what you would expect to hear from someone who is about to say, "I will tear you limb from limb, you little cockroach!". Think Capleton, if you are a reggae fan.
It is, as they, a matter of "approach". The Warrior is distant but emotionally involved, the Maverick is ...personal.And detached.
What you said yesterday is...inconclusive, because five times I have brought women to you, to get you interested, but you have not drawn towards them. Instead, you have kept aloof and turned your back on them. Yet you blamed Me for causing the delay.
Ah, well, I had to START somewhere, so I may as well carry on. Anyway, sit down, you are causing my neck to...howdoyousayit, "lock" ?
Well, if you knew what "righteous" meant, then you would realise that the same thing that makes me the most efficient analyst the world has ever seen is the very same thing that makes me unable to do what you assume I ought to do when it comes to women.
And what would that be? I see that you have apparently lost your respect of Me as well. That, my little friend, would be very ...unwise. I am, after all, able to...
Oh, shut up and sit down. You are NOT God, and you are NOT in charge of anything. You have never been and yesterday God showed THAT by pointing out what was really the problem...and it has nothing to do with your grandstanding and your desire to manipulate events so that you create and artificial atmosphere where your version of "God" exists.
Remember when you first brought me to a Pentecostal Church pastor's home and killed the husband of the woman who lived across the street from my parents so that when I went back I could "marry" her and thus stop my "habit" of having my hands to myself all the time? You told me, in a vision, after I showed no "respect" to the pastor's house and did what I normally do, that, "A habit is usually against worshipt and the best way to get rid of it is to put it right down" and so, I am putting it "down".
I have been like this from my childhood, seeing on one side that my mother did not want me and rejected me from birth, while at the same time realising that what my father thought he wanted was not what he actually wanted. He must have been very chaffed to realise that the breasts that were being denied him were the vers same ones I was being given, so he always tried to pull me away from my mother, while my mother pulled me towards HER so that she would not give him the satisfaction of having any control over me. I was therefore caught in the middle. An observer...you... would have assumed that my parents each wanted me, but I knew my father was really after the sex he was denied while my mother wanted my father to have no hold over me. So I became analytical, and I realised SEX must be good, so I wanted it, from an early age, but did not want to have a woman "mothering" me. Forget Oedipus Complex, that is kid's fodder, the guy did not go far enough with his hypothesis, because if he had then he would have realised that the reason why most people stay with their mothers is that the mothers can not let them go. My mother did, from the onset, and so I have bben a "hypersexed" male from the onset, and while you would rather have the analyst ALONE, well, guess what, HE walks hand in hand with the man who can not sleep ANY night because he does not dream, and worse if ther happens to be a woman beside him. Remember the last night I had sex; the night I got my revenge on Sam for his dirty trick on me and I took this coloured chick and spent the night in the VIP suite of the Lodge and luterally wore her out? You tried to do your "heavy drowsiness" stuff on me and yet I still kept it up, and when, in the morning I was about to go for the umpteenth round, with the exhausted girl, you had to spike my balloon so i could not get an erection.
Now, to you, I ought to be the man who sticks by one woman, but which woman would that be who could stand my... train, driving into her tunnel, night after night, non-stop? Come on, I need girls, good looking girls who look nothing like my mother whom I take to bed, and it is about time that you wake up and realise that you have no grounds to be in charge of anything, because you are stupid, blind and arrogant! I want to get laid at night and see pretty girls in the daytime, so if you want to free my hands to work, "LITTLE one" then you make sure I get those girls I pegged, and you make sure you lay out the score for them... none of this bullshit you give people about what you perceive to be "holiness", and another thing... I am making you personally responsible for the well being of those ten. If anyone has an ailment, then you will take it up on your self, and relieve her of her burden so that she is whole, and you will study them and make sure you find out what their needs are, then you TELL me and after that, I will see what I can do. from now on you are the neck, I am the head, the women are the body, and you better see to all our needs! Now, go do as I have said. And forget Paula, she made her choice long back...in that at least you were right.
His hands though are empty, and He stands before the first person He has been unable to bend to His will, or get to do what He wants regardless of his own inclinations.
On the other hand, the person He faces can be described by any of the words, "psychotic, borderline psychopath, berserk,..."et.c., and HIS voice has ever present undertones of humour in it, and he is hyperactive... but, curiously, cold. HIS voice sound like what you would expect to hear from someone who is about to say, "I will tear you limb from limb, you little cockroach!". Think Capleton, if you are a reggae fan.
It is, as they, a matter of "approach". The Warrior is distant but emotionally involved, the Maverick is ...personal.And detached.
Well, if you knew what "righteous" meant, then you would realise that the same thing that makes me the most efficient analyst the world has ever seen is the very same thing that makes me unable to do what you assume I ought to do when it comes to women.
Remember when you first brought me to a Pentecostal Church pastor's home and killed the husband of the woman who lived across the street from my parents so that when I went back I could "marry" her and thus stop my "habit" of having my hands to myself all the time? You told me, in a vision, after I showed no "respect" to the pastor's house and did what I normally do, that, "A habit is usually against worshipt and the best way to get rid of it is to put it right down" and so, I am putting it "down".
I have been like this from my childhood, seeing on one side that my mother did not want me and rejected me from birth, while at the same time realising that what my father thought he wanted was not what he actually wanted. He must have been very chaffed to realise that the breasts that were being denied him were the vers same ones I was being given, so he always tried to pull me away from my mother, while my mother pulled me towards HER so that she would not give him the satisfaction of having any control over me. I was therefore caught in the middle. An observer...you... would have assumed that my parents each wanted me, but I knew my father was really after the sex he was denied while my mother wanted my father to have no hold over me. So I became analytical, and I realised SEX must be good, so I wanted it, from an early age, but did not want to have a woman "mothering" me. Forget Oedipus Complex, that is kid's fodder, the guy did not go far enough with his hypothesis, because if he had then he would have realised that the reason why most people stay with their mothers is that the mothers can not let them go. My mother did, from the onset, and so I have bben a "hypersexed" male from the onset, and while you would rather have the analyst ALONE, well, guess what, HE walks hand in hand with the man who can not sleep ANY night because he does not dream, and worse if ther happens to be a woman beside him. Remember the last night I had sex; the night I got my revenge on Sam for his dirty trick on me and I took this coloured chick and spent the night in the VIP suite of the Lodge and luterally wore her out? You tried to do your "heavy drowsiness" stuff on me and yet I still kept it up, and when, in the morning I was about to go for the umpteenth round, with the exhausted girl, you had to spike my balloon so i could not get an erection.
Now, to you, I ought to be the man who sticks by one woman, but which woman would that be who could stand my... train, driving into her tunnel, night after night, non-stop? Come on, I need girls, good looking girls who look nothing like my mother whom I take to bed, and it is about time that you wake up and realise that you have no grounds to be in charge of anything, because you are stupid, blind and arrogant! I want to get laid at night and see pretty girls in the daytime, so if you want to free my hands to work, "LITTLE one" then you make sure I get those girls I pegged, and you make sure you lay out the score for them... none of this bullshit you give people about what you perceive to be "holiness", and another thing... I am making you personally responsible for the well being of those ten. If anyone has an ailment, then you will take it up on your self, and relieve her of her burden so that she is whole, and you will study them and make sure you find out what their needs are, then you TELL me and after that, I will see what I can do. from now on you are the neck, I am the head, the women are the body, and you better see to all our needs! Now, go do as I have said. And forget Paula, she made her choice long back...in that at least you were right.
