It is very demeaning to start doing something and have no one pay attention. It gives you an inferiority complex, and makes you feel hopeless.
Kind of like when you are solving a puzzle that Johnny Nash, a well-known mathematician, says can not be solved, and everyone is laughing at you because you dare to be different and not recognise convention simply because that makes everyone esle happy...even though it is a lie.
Which is why I usually just want to quit.
Till God steps in and declares,
Behold, I am The LORD, the God of all flesh, is there ANYTHING too hard for Me?
And of course you say, no, BUT You see, while I would really like to show that You are the only power, come on, look at my life; everyone else but ME has the reins to every aspect of it, and well, it gets frustrating, Cant You do something about it, kinda like when Joshua asked You to not let the sun go down till he had hunted his enemies and destroyed them? because he knew that if the sun were to set then they would regroup?
I mean, all I want is to go to this Alaska place, under Your power, take the ten women with me as I would like, get my own place set up, independent of any human intervention or sanction, get something like a year's supply of food while You supply seed to sow, and have You keep the boundaries so that no one enters and I have no need to go outside...You can take care of the details... just so that I can show starting from the basic mathematics [I will need uninterupted email access, that means unlimited electricity] just where the falsehoods are about creation, and stuff, and work my way till I disperse and dispose of even Christ and The Holy Spirit, and all the other spirits that make conventional life hell for me... something like that?
All I need is unhimdered space and opportunity, and to hell with B-2s and airfields; give me nature anytime, and let me sink my teeth into this, please!
Now, I conclude, I have given the US president five weeks to vacate Alaska, and I need it by 10 September, so I can move in.
Will You honour that, and everything else I have demanded of these people?
Kind of like when you are solving a puzzle that Johnny Nash, a well-known mathematician, says can not be solved, and everyone is laughing at you because you dare to be different and not recognise convention simply because that makes everyone esle happy...even though it is a lie.
Which is why I usually just want to quit.
Till God steps in and declares,
Behold, I am The LORD, the God of all flesh, is there ANYTHING too hard for Me?
And of course you say, no, BUT You see, while I would really like to show that You are the only power, come on, look at my life; everyone else but ME has the reins to every aspect of it, and well, it gets frustrating, Cant You do something about it, kinda like when Joshua asked You to not let the sun go down till he had hunted his enemies and destroyed them? because he knew that if the sun were to set then they would regroup?
I mean, all I want is to go to this Alaska place, under Your power, take the ten women with me as I would like, get my own place set up, independent of any human intervention or sanction, get something like a year's supply of food while You supply seed to sow, and have You keep the boundaries so that no one enters and I have no need to go outside...You can take care of the details... just so that I can show starting from the basic mathematics [I will need uninterupted email access, that means unlimited electricity] just where the falsehoods are about creation, and stuff, and work my way till I disperse and dispose of even Christ and The Holy Spirit, and all the other spirits that make conventional life hell for me... something like that?
All I need is unhimdered space and opportunity, and to hell with B-2s and airfields; give me nature anytime, and let me sink my teeth into this, please!
Now, I conclude, I have given the US president five weeks to vacate Alaska, and I need it by 10 September, so I can move in.
Will You honour that, and everything else I have demanded of these people?
