I REMEMBER...
...FEELING that giddy elation when God came unannounced into my life, feeling relieved, special, and that God was not like everyone else who just condemned me without my even having done anything.
...Coming back down to earth with the dismal thought that maybe He was not even going to let me enjoy anything, or to let me find things out for myself, especially as I read the Bible and saw this structured approach by Christ, about how to get to God, even though, technically He [God Himself] had bypassed that and sought me out.
...Feeling a sense of relief when one day I opened the Bible, and as I was worrying over Christ's words, I came to a part when He said, apropos of something else, "...for the things concerning me have an end", in reference to himself and his [sic] 'purpose', and discovering that by so saying the ONLY begotten of God was actually referring to the fact that HE was not going to be able to fight God's natural order forever.
...Thinking that, if THAT is the case, I would rather be a 'Natural' person, and naturally bring the God story, [Gud-spiel] right into the very natural domain, to the very ends of the earth, an end which I assigned myself, after realising that God never meant for ANYBODY to do something for Him, but rather to have Him.
...Losing my fresh-faced innocence the day I was told in front of the class that I had won the national prize for math, and realising that the people who were clapping hands for me actually could not stand me, but had always resented me for my arrogance and non-conformity.
...Wondering whether I could handle the double standards of sucking-up to people in order to show them they are wrong, while trying to live and independent life where my only acknowledged Boss was God...and so seeking a way out, via solving the Goldbach Conjecture.
...Losing even that hope when I came face to face with the errors in Math that I would have to correct even AFTER solving the Conjecture, and also realisng that I would have to surrender most of whtever money I made to my mother, because she felt I 'owed' her for her not killing me, and 'suffering' me all these years I was under her roof.
...Quitting the Conjecture, trying to be 'normal', and the one time my heart felt it would literally burst as I sat in the hall at the Midlands State University, knowing I could never sustain a single more day as a 'learner'... and God, speaking so softly to me, and telling me, in a sweet song, right when I thought I would just die, that He cared for me.
... Walking away, and all these years of struggling to find the right 'balance' of work and my study, and finding that the two do not mix, that I could not concentrate if in anything somebody else had the final say, or influence, and not finding a way out
Till NOW
Because now, I have to say it, I need to do this, and there is no way I am going to pretend that I am out to make friends with anyone, or even to mince matters.
People, by the time I am done, everyone, from Christ, The Holy Spirit, the demons, and basically everyone else...even the angels and all other people... will be dead.
These nine years left are to show everyone else the errors that made God not draw to them, and I have sought out for myself ten women whom I call now to myself, and a land where I will be isolated from everyone else till I make an end of the lies that define life today...every single one of them.
I do not want anyone to build a house for me, or for anyone to give me anything... I have the power to take what I want, but I choose to cling to God, and Him only, and so, all I demand is that Alaska be evacuated forthwith.
To show the unlimited power at my disposal, I declare this:
Tomorrow, Washington D.C. will be flooded, and people will die. The whole city will be no more.
Then you will hasten to listen to me.
As for the women, I call them all, at once, to me.
I have a very great grudge against Michelle and her boyfriend, so it will have to be at his house, that we all meet, AND the US President will provide the transportation for the Dutch girl to come to me, and for us to go to stay in Alaska, at the Governor's mansion, or at the most imposing place there, whichever is larger.
He will provide also for me, the B-2's [2], the F-117s [three of them] and spares for them, as well as an unlimited account for when I want to travel...ah, I will need a Concorde for that, which I will learn to pilot for myself, thank you very much.
The money, and 10 credit cards, will be to buy whatever I may see fit when I feel like it, like the fast cars, clothing, et.c...., oh, and yeah, I will need a fully automated 300ft yatch, with a flight deck for a Sea King [also provided] as well as that mosquito-like Russian attack helicopter [ah, it is a presidential thing; he talks to his Russian counterpart, they agree, or I flood Moscow as well]
I will need a fully fitted machine-shop, as well as boiler-shop, and unlimited access to the internet, to present the facts as they stand and, literally bring all this nonsense that is 'civilisation' and mankind, to a standstill.
Look on the bright side:
If you survive tomorrow, you get to live a bit longer, resist me, and you die sooner... after all, you were all going to die anyway, right?
...FEELING that giddy elation when God came unannounced into my life, feeling relieved, special, and that God was not like everyone else who just condemned me without my even having done anything.
...Coming back down to earth with the dismal thought that maybe He was not even going to let me enjoy anything, or to let me find things out for myself, especially as I read the Bible and saw this structured approach by Christ, about how to get to God, even though, technically He [God Himself] had bypassed that and sought me out.
...Feeling a sense of relief when one day I opened the Bible, and as I was worrying over Christ's words, I came to a part when He said, apropos of something else, "...for the things concerning me have an end", in reference to himself and his [sic] 'purpose', and discovering that by so saying the ONLY begotten of God was actually referring to the fact that HE was not going to be able to fight God's natural order forever.
...Thinking that, if THAT is the case, I would rather be a 'Natural' person, and naturally bring the God story, [Gud-spiel] right into the very natural domain, to the very ends of the earth, an end which I assigned myself, after realising that God never meant for ANYBODY to do something for Him, but rather to have Him.
...Losing my fresh-faced innocence the day I was told in front of the class that I had won the national prize for math, and realising that the people who were clapping hands for me actually could not stand me, but had always resented me for my arrogance and non-conformity.
...Wondering whether I could handle the double standards of sucking-up to people in order to show them they are wrong, while trying to live and independent life where my only acknowledged Boss was God...and so seeking a way out, via solving the Goldbach Conjecture.
...Losing even that hope when I came face to face with the errors in Math that I would have to correct even AFTER solving the Conjecture, and also realisng that I would have to surrender most of whtever money I made to my mother, because she felt I 'owed' her for her not killing me, and 'suffering' me all these years I was under her roof.
...Quitting the Conjecture, trying to be 'normal', and the one time my heart felt it would literally burst as I sat in the hall at the Midlands State University, knowing I could never sustain a single more day as a 'learner'... and God, speaking so softly to me, and telling me, in a sweet song, right when I thought I would just die, that He cared for me.
... Walking away, and all these years of struggling to find the right 'balance' of work and my study, and finding that the two do not mix, that I could not concentrate if in anything somebody else had the final say, or influence, and not finding a way out
Till NOW
Because now, I have to say it, I need to do this, and there is no way I am going to pretend that I am out to make friends with anyone, or even to mince matters.
People, by the time I am done, everyone, from Christ, The Holy Spirit, the demons, and basically everyone else...even the angels and all other people... will be dead.
These nine years left are to show everyone else the errors that made God not draw to them, and I have sought out for myself ten women whom I call now to myself, and a land where I will be isolated from everyone else till I make an end of the lies that define life today...every single one of them.
I do not want anyone to build a house for me, or for anyone to give me anything... I have the power to take what I want, but I choose to cling to God, and Him only, and so, all I demand is that Alaska be evacuated forthwith.
To show the unlimited power at my disposal, I declare this:
Tomorrow, Washington D.C. will be flooded, and people will die. The whole city will be no more.
Then you will hasten to listen to me.
As for the women, I call them all, at once, to me.
I have a very great grudge against Michelle and her boyfriend, so it will have to be at his house, that we all meet, AND the US President will provide the transportation for the Dutch girl to come to me, and for us to go to stay in Alaska, at the Governor's mansion, or at the most imposing place there, whichever is larger.
He will provide also for me, the B-2's [2], the F-117s [three of them] and spares for them, as well as an unlimited account for when I want to travel...ah, I will need a Concorde for that, which I will learn to pilot for myself, thank you very much.
The money, and 10 credit cards, will be to buy whatever I may see fit when I feel like it, like the fast cars, clothing, et.c...., oh, and yeah, I will need a fully automated 300ft yatch, with a flight deck for a Sea King [also provided] as well as that mosquito-like Russian attack helicopter [ah, it is a presidential thing; he talks to his Russian counterpart, they agree, or I flood Moscow as well]
I will need a fully fitted machine-shop, as well as boiler-shop, and unlimited access to the internet, to present the facts as they stand and, literally bring all this nonsense that is 'civilisation' and mankind, to a standstill.
Look on the bright side:
If you survive tomorrow, you get to live a bit longer, resist me, and you die sooner... after all, you were all going to die anyway, right?
