Know that scene in "Lord of the Rings 1: Fellowship of the Ring" where Gandalf tries to translate the ancient reading on the gate and ends up with 'speak, friend, and enter', instead of 'say "friend", and enter?
Well, I have known for some time now that the ONLY person who is putting everything on hold is ME, and that, if I am satisfied, I only have to speak the words, the gate is open, and God seals it. And, just like in the ark, everyone else is sealed out, and THEN darkness will descend.
However, before I do that, I have to just recap WHY that is so.
1) I have never gone out of my way to try to harm anyone...hell, I would very much have preferred to be the one who is sealed out so that people can enjoy the crazy lives that they live... but no one would leave me alone. I was like the flame that attracted moths to it, everyone wanted to smother me, but they either got burnt or I decided, after too much grief, to just walk away.
since it seemed I could do untold harm if I decided to take matters into my own hands.
2)Only God made a real impact in my life, one that lasts, because when He decided to take matters into His own hands, He first of all made sure that everything I thought He was apt to do was first proved wrong, and that He was in total agreement with me in my assesment of things, and therefore, decided that HE would wait till I felt I was good to go before He put the seal on my actions...like He did when I refused to patch things up with my mother, and ended up leaving home with the wound glaring open.
3)Seeing that God had said, "I will never again destroy the earth with a flood for the man's sake, for the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth", I worked out that the reason He would not do so was that the man, instead of agreeing with God the need for a God-centred world, in which he was free to be himself because God was in overall control; wanted a man-centred world in which God was nowhere to be found, simply because he thought God would prove a hindrance.
So, what happened was that, when I found out that God had said I would not die, I decided to test that, and was very glad to realise that that was true...which is why I take more seriously a word that He whispers into my ear so softly more than the loudest or most glaringly 'obvious' reality that is before me.
What I am saying, people, is that The Most High God is not, has never been, and will never be, a majority God. He seeks solitary people, time and time again... and with me He has stopped searching, because way before, when he was first angry, He promised that I would be born, and crush the serpent's head, and throughout His works, He has consoled Himself by promising that the time would come when He would not be hindered in what He does, as Almighty God, because he would take for Himself a person after His own heart, one who has no need for a life outside of Him, one who, according to Him 'sees' that existence exists in Him
So, the point is, not only am I disappointed in people, but God agrees that I am right in being so, because what I see is what is really there, and He not only sees that I am unhappy, but He knew that I wondered whether there did not exist at least some people that did not deserve to just be swept away in torment...people I could enjoy being with, people I did not have to walk on tiptoe around.
In other words, certain people to whom explanations about what is going on would not be necessary, because they themselves would see for themselves...since sight always comes before speech. Even from birth.
So, there they are, ten women, women who have no blinkers, women who do not rely on 'mere' words to carry on, women who rely more on what they see than what they hear, because anyone can lie, but the light will always expose the truth...if one has eyes to see with.
In light of that, I therefore have to say, I have nothing to hold me back anymore. I trust God, as I trust no one and nothing else, and therefore, I am convinced that these women have never desired any other man, nor have they tried shortcuts, and that He, God, knows how to bring them to me, and having brought them, to keep us.
So, I will not worry about THAT. Becuase that is not my department.
What I want is the flood thing. In Alaska.Tsunami, I mean.
Then destruction of Washington D.C.. If THAT is brushed off as a freak thing, I would also have the city/town/place where HolyWood is also destroyed. Because the world of make-believe irritates me. Two days after Washington D.C.. Just like the bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Because Americans do not 'negotiate' when it comes to threats. So a show of force is necessary. Just to lay the ground rules.
Because I also want to go shopping before I get to Alaska, and an enemy who surrenders...well, they say strike the hammer while the iron is hot, because they may later decide it was just a freakish thing, see?
Anyway, when you turn on the news, and hear that a surprise tsunami has destroyed most of the western part of Alaska, and then hear that The White House, Pentagon and later, HolyWood are no more...know that the time is up...not even your Christ will save you now, becausse even he will be worrying wbout his own skin. Like never before.
The point is; I am ready to move. Let things start happening...the conception period is over. Time for engineering (putting the theory into practice)
Well, I have known for some time now that the ONLY person who is putting everything on hold is ME, and that, if I am satisfied, I only have to speak the words, the gate is open, and God seals it. And, just like in the ark, everyone else is sealed out, and THEN darkness will descend.
However, before I do that, I have to just recap WHY that is so.
1) I have never gone out of my way to try to harm anyone...hell, I would very much have preferred to be the one who is sealed out so that people can enjoy the crazy lives that they live... but no one would leave me alone. I was like the flame that attracted moths to it, everyone wanted to smother me, but they either got burnt or I decided, after too much grief, to just walk away.
since it seemed I could do untold harm if I decided to take matters into my own hands.
2)Only God made a real impact in my life, one that lasts, because when He decided to take matters into His own hands, He first of all made sure that everything I thought He was apt to do was first proved wrong, and that He was in total agreement with me in my assesment of things, and therefore, decided that HE would wait till I felt I was good to go before He put the seal on my actions...like He did when I refused to patch things up with my mother, and ended up leaving home with the wound glaring open.
3)Seeing that God had said, "I will never again destroy the earth with a flood for the man's sake, for the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth", I worked out that the reason He would not do so was that the man, instead of agreeing with God the need for a God-centred world, in which he was free to be himself because God was in overall control; wanted a man-centred world in which God was nowhere to be found, simply because he thought God would prove a hindrance.
So, what happened was that, when I found out that God had said I would not die, I decided to test that, and was very glad to realise that that was true...which is why I take more seriously a word that He whispers into my ear so softly more than the loudest or most glaringly 'obvious' reality that is before me.
What I am saying, people, is that The Most High God is not, has never been, and will never be, a majority God. He seeks solitary people, time and time again... and with me He has stopped searching, because way before, when he was first angry, He promised that I would be born, and crush the serpent's head, and throughout His works, He has consoled Himself by promising that the time would come when He would not be hindered in what He does, as Almighty God, because he would take for Himself a person after His own heart, one who has no need for a life outside of Him, one who, according to Him 'sees' that existence exists in Him
So, the point is, not only am I disappointed in people, but God agrees that I am right in being so, because what I see is what is really there, and He not only sees that I am unhappy, but He knew that I wondered whether there did not exist at least some people that did not deserve to just be swept away in torment...people I could enjoy being with, people I did not have to walk on tiptoe around.
In other words, certain people to whom explanations about what is going on would not be necessary, because they themselves would see for themselves...since sight always comes before speech. Even from birth.
So, there they are, ten women, women who have no blinkers, women who do not rely on 'mere' words to carry on, women who rely more on what they see than what they hear, because anyone can lie, but the light will always expose the truth...if one has eyes to see with.
In light of that, I therefore have to say, I have nothing to hold me back anymore. I trust God, as I trust no one and nothing else, and therefore, I am convinced that these women have never desired any other man, nor have they tried shortcuts, and that He, God, knows how to bring them to me, and having brought them, to keep us.
So, I will not worry about THAT. Becuase that is not my department.
What I want is the flood thing. In Alaska.Tsunami, I mean.
Then destruction of Washington D.C.. If THAT is brushed off as a freak thing, I would also have the city/town/place where HolyWood is also destroyed. Because the world of make-believe irritates me. Two days after Washington D.C.. Just like the bombs on Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Because Americans do not 'negotiate' when it comes to threats. So a show of force is necessary. Just to lay the ground rules.
Because I also want to go shopping before I get to Alaska, and an enemy who surrenders...well, they say strike the hammer while the iron is hot, because they may later decide it was just a freakish thing, see?
Anyway, when you turn on the news, and hear that a surprise tsunami has destroyed most of the western part of Alaska, and then hear that The White House, Pentagon and later, HolyWood are no more...know that the time is up...not even your Christ will save you now, becausse even he will be worrying wbout his own skin. Like never before.
The point is; I am ready to move. Let things start happening...the conception period is over. Time for engineering (putting the theory into practice)
