Just so we all know where we ALL stand...
Call me the LAST HERO:
Maybe you have read the book, about a guy who called himself Genghis Cohen? He went about, at first doing great deeds and rescuing damsels in distress... only, like all heros, to find out that it was not all its cracked out to be, because the damsels turned out to be demanding, the hours long... and of course, the false teeth!
So, he decided to be selfish and cheat death... classic "Hero Never Dies" stuff, and that is where the parallels begin with me.
So, we start with God, and He tells me to be myself, and over the past few days of critical self-examination, (something I almost never did since I assumed that I was like everyone else)I discovered that God does NOT have a place for me in His Kingdom, since it is written, in Revelations, "...would that you were hot or cold, but because you are neither, I will spit you out of My mouth", and, since I am an indifferent observer of His ways, not to thwart or to help things along, I also linked THAT statement with the first one, at the beginning, about the man with feet of brass out of whose mouth came a sharp two edged sword.., and realised that, hey, I am literally a "sword for hire", doing what I do simply because I get something which does not really mean much to me but is better than nothing...or WORSE, depending on how you look at it...; a LIFE, of sorts.
I get to go about, for all eternity, neither of the earth nor of heaven, but in the "firmament" in between, and hey, while all the ones who burn for God get to go into His Kingdom, and live under the Lordship of Jesus Christ, I get to just blaze my own trail and give everyone the finger, and all because I got born...or conceived.
Now, normally I do not care about what happens to people, but NOW, I have reached a point where some stupid people are making me RESPONSIBLE for something I do not really care about, something which they should have handled themselves,and sorted out for their own benefit, so one can imagine the ever mounting ANGER that is growing inside me as I see the growing complacency of everyone because the people somehow assume that God will put a leash on me and bring me to heel so that their undisturbed lives carry on as before.
So, he decided to be selfish and cheat death... classic "Hero Never Dies" stuff, and that is where the parallels begin with me.
So, we start with God, and He tells me to be myself, and over the past few days of critical self-examination, (something I almost never did since I assumed that I was like everyone else)I discovered that God does NOT have a place for me in His Kingdom, since it is written, in Revelations, "...would that you were hot or cold, but because you are neither, I will spit you out of My mouth", and, since I am an indifferent observer of His ways, not to thwart or to help things along, I also linked THAT statement with the first one, at the beginning, about the man with feet of brass out of whose mouth came a sharp two edged sword.., and realised that, hey, I am literally a "sword for hire", doing what I do simply because I get something which does not really mean much to me but is better than nothing...or WORSE, depending on how you look at it...; a LIFE, of sorts.
I get to go about, for all eternity, neither of the earth nor of heaven, but in the "firmament" in between, and hey, while all the ones who burn for God get to go into His Kingdom, and live under the Lordship of Jesus Christ, I get to just blaze my own trail and give everyone the finger, and all because I got born...or conceived.
Now, normally I do not care about what happens to people, but NOW, I have reached a point where some stupid people are making me RESPONSIBLE for something I do not really care about, something which they should have handled themselves,and sorted out for their own benefit, so one can imagine the ever mounting ANGER that is growing inside me as I see the growing complacency of everyone because the people somehow assume that God will put a leash on me and bring me to heel so that their undisturbed lives carry on as before.
I have repeatedly warned everyone, and NOW I am getting upset, and that is not a good thing, for anyone, because it means that the ONE person that sees no one nor thing as worth two cents is in control of the situation, and THAT is kind of like the "Son of Man" who has in his hands the seven stars...NOT a situation I want to be in, nor one that anyone wants to be in, because now MY way of life is in jeopardy, and the only way to extricate myself is to go straight THROUGH everyone.
I will do so, then, retire.
Now, let us face it, being "not quite" alive and "not quite" dead presents some interesting and disturbing situations. For one thing, there is no depth to anything...I actually get "full" at just the smell of food and a tidbit in my mouth, for examlple, and then forget about that unless someone reminds me that I am human by putting me in a situation that calls for some commitment, or raises the issue that I am wanting there-in.
Which means, where, for example, ONE damsel in distress would be enough for a normal hero, I would need six or seven, and regulate myself among these so that there is no real question of why I am not THERE when I am around... and I have had my eye on SOME for a while... and they would get to share my curious life, if I am satisfied that, weirdly enough, THEY care about me, to the exclusion of everyone else.
Which is also why I have set my curious conditions for my work, because, lets face it, NOBODY wants someone who is basically a nihilist, in charge of things to do with The Holy God.
Or with things about this life.
So, people, you are in trouble, because, you see, I have NOTHING TO LOSE.
I am a person who is just totally selfish, if you want to put it like that...with his feet in the fire, and NOT liking the sensation.
Now, let us face it, being "not quite" alive and "not quite" dead presents some interesting and disturbing situations. For one thing, there is no depth to anything...I actually get "full" at just the smell of food and a tidbit in my mouth, for examlple, and then forget about that unless someone reminds me that I am human by putting me in a situation that calls for some commitment, or raises the issue that I am wanting there-in.
Which means, where, for example, ONE damsel in distress would be enough for a normal hero, I would need six or seven, and regulate myself among these so that there is no real question of why I am not THERE when I am around... and I have had my eye on SOME for a while... and they would get to share my curious life, if I am satisfied that, weirdly enough, THEY care about me, to the exclusion of everyone else.
Which is also why I have set my curious conditions for my work, because, lets face it, NOBODY wants someone who is basically a nihilist, in charge of things to do with The Holy God.
Or with things about this life.
So, people, you are in trouble, because, you see, I have NOTHING TO LOSE.
I am a person who is just totally selfish, if you want to put it like that...with his feet in the fire, and NOT liking the sensation.
It is now war. To the end!
