The good thing about being accountable to no one is that I get to be as outrageous as I want to be...and hey, I am taking full advantage of that, because, well, THAT is what I am all about.
Take my women thing, for instance. I was going back and forth in Scripture all night, trying to find a plausible reason NOT to do as I had decided long back, but the thing is, it all came back to WHAT GOD SAID, as opposed to what, for example, either The Holy Spirit or Christ or an angel or a prophet later said.
There are two groups in the Bible, or rather two positions, and on the one hand, there is God in all His consistency, and then there are the assumptions of all those who thought they spoke in place of God.
I have realised that I am naturally, horrifyingly, practically and unorthodoxically inclined towards God's point of view, and naturally obey God without even realising it sometimes, even to doing outrageous things that seem, at face value, at odds with what the traditions of the "believers" in God hold to.
Here is an example.
A "practical" one too. About women.
So, I am angry with Michelle, and I want to chuck her away, but I do not want to let her go for the simple reason that if I do so, she will only later realise what I meant when I am far away, like the woman in the song sang "On and on we seem to go but we don't know what we've got till its gone". She is really so full of herself she is unbearable, and nothing would please me more than to smash that smugness to the ground, because she is too full of herself to be anything else but the target of my scorn. She went out of her way one time to anger me and show me that she also could be what I "seemed" to be, and incoporated a friend of hers, who someone described to me as "that Nicky woman", and the friend's brother, so that the guy could pose as her boyfriend so that I could become jealous and stop sending her messages and "be a man" and come see her...at her feet of course.
But I play no games, so I decided that, since the only reason why I was NOT going to have anything more to do with her was because I would have to deal with the "boyfriend" issue, and probably strangle the guy...and her as well, for playing games with me...well, I had second thoughts, and have decided to show her something that she should have known from the start, something that was revealed by the actions of her "friend": The lady in question is more aware of what Michelle stands to lose than Michelle herself is, and I have concluded that the only way to show that, to the stupid little fool, is to do a practical demonstration of it.
I am taking the girl as mine. As well as Michelle. She will not refuse. The alternative is that I kill her brother with my bare hands, and Michelle as well, if she decides to bypass this. I am likely to kill the little scumbag anyway [eh, I am a LITERAL person, and when I say "kill" I mean just that] so I am giving him a choice; as long as I remain on this planet, the only place he will be safe will be the ONE place I have no inclination to go to, and that is Zimbabwe, and so he better go there, fast, while I am still re-adjusting and fitting into this no-longer-hiding-myself mode.
So, that is woman number12.
13) There are two sisters, who came to the lodge where I stayed when Michelle aroused my anger, and I found the elder interesting, and started to talk to her, but then she also included the younger one in the converstaion, and when I had started talking to her, I found her ALSO interesting, and yet, because it is NOT done, I drew back, but when I sent the elder an e-mail later complaining that she and her sister had left without goodbyes, she assumed that, because I had spoken to her younger sister the most, she must therefore include HER, and she replied accordingly. I worked that out and decided that I would take them both. I KNOW that there is a law against this, but that was NOT predicated on the God view; The Holy Spirit being more with the belief that man is just a glorified animal who needs to be chained by "moral" laws against the taking of a woman and her sister, because that would turn the man more into domestic squabbles and less into doing God's will.
Hey, I NEVER listen to what anyone says, and I assure everyone that one thing that will NOT happen is that the women will fight each other over me, because they will both realise the one glaring truth: that they BOTH wanted the same thing but were too "formal" to be plain about it. I have rrom for both, and they will look to me, not each other...just as Michelle and her friend will, because there is no such thing as a "girl's club".That is 13 and 14.Anja and Lisa Lemoine.
15-17) There is, of course, Paula, and here, The Holy Spirit made his first obvious mistake, because he said that I should not talk her out of her relationship with her boyfriend because "God is a God of thin violence". He assumed He knew what God thought, when the only thing God had said when I thought I was really going for something I could not have was that she "had followed me drinking"...eh, He said that before she followed me when I came to drink near her place because He saw my perplexity and my mute, "Father I can not just walk away from her" interest in her.
She confirmed what I had suspected already; that the girl lived for me, and so, when I had the confirmation, I relaxed a bit. Then she decided to listen to her younger sister and her cousin...and they told her how I was probably just trying to use her to get back at the girl I had tried to hang myself over [as I mentioned earlier, I did a lot of underhanded things; I tried to destroy a girl's life so that I could have plausible reason for committing suicide...I obviously did not succed], when in actual fact the girls were themselves hot girls who felt overlooked, even though all three were involved with some other guys, guys who, curiously enough, made sure they made the girls pregnant.
I thought, "fuck this, women are stupid fools, I will have nothing to do with these three", but then, it struck me that by walking away I was leaving them in the hands of vengeful vultures who...and I will tell all women this... KNOW that they are not the number one choice of the woman and so "win" her over with reasonable words that will seem sweet but will destroy her life.
So, I am exercising my prerogative as being a lord, a som of The God most high, and claiming these three. For myslelf.
18) There is this girl also, called Anahi Fissori. More on her and others tomorrow.
Take my women thing, for instance. I was going back and forth in Scripture all night, trying to find a plausible reason NOT to do as I had decided long back, but the thing is, it all came back to WHAT GOD SAID, as opposed to what, for example, either The Holy Spirit or Christ or an angel or a prophet later said.
There are two groups in the Bible, or rather two positions, and on the one hand, there is God in all His consistency, and then there are the assumptions of all those who thought they spoke in place of God.
I have realised that I am naturally, horrifyingly, practically and unorthodoxically inclined towards God's point of view, and naturally obey God without even realising it sometimes, even to doing outrageous things that seem, at face value, at odds with what the traditions of the "believers" in God hold to.
Here is an example.
A "practical" one too. About women.
So, I am angry with Michelle, and I want to chuck her away, but I do not want to let her go for the simple reason that if I do so, she will only later realise what I meant when I am far away, like the woman in the song sang "On and on we seem to go but we don't know what we've got till its gone". She is really so full of herself she is unbearable, and nothing would please me more than to smash that smugness to the ground, because she is too full of herself to be anything else but the target of my scorn. She went out of her way one time to anger me and show me that she also could be what I "seemed" to be, and incoporated a friend of hers, who someone described to me as "that Nicky woman", and the friend's brother, so that the guy could pose as her boyfriend so that I could become jealous and stop sending her messages and "be a man" and come see her...at her feet of course.
But I play no games, so I decided that, since the only reason why I was NOT going to have anything more to do with her was because I would have to deal with the "boyfriend" issue, and probably strangle the guy...and her as well, for playing games with me...well, I had second thoughts, and have decided to show her something that she should have known from the start, something that was revealed by the actions of her "friend": The lady in question is more aware of what Michelle stands to lose than Michelle herself is, and I have concluded that the only way to show that, to the stupid little fool, is to do a practical demonstration of it.
I am taking the girl as mine. As well as Michelle. She will not refuse. The alternative is that I kill her brother with my bare hands, and Michelle as well, if she decides to bypass this. I am likely to kill the little scumbag anyway [eh, I am a LITERAL person, and when I say "kill" I mean just that] so I am giving him a choice; as long as I remain on this planet, the only place he will be safe will be the ONE place I have no inclination to go to, and that is Zimbabwe, and so he better go there, fast, while I am still re-adjusting and fitting into this no-longer-hiding-myself mode.
So, that is woman number12.
13) There are two sisters, who came to the lodge where I stayed when Michelle aroused my anger, and I found the elder interesting, and started to talk to her, but then she also included the younger one in the converstaion, and when I had started talking to her, I found her ALSO interesting, and yet, because it is NOT done, I drew back, but when I sent the elder an e-mail later complaining that she and her sister had left without goodbyes, she assumed that, because I had spoken to her younger sister the most, she must therefore include HER, and she replied accordingly. I worked that out and decided that I would take them both. I KNOW that there is a law against this, but that was NOT predicated on the God view; The Holy Spirit being more with the belief that man is just a glorified animal who needs to be chained by "moral" laws against the taking of a woman and her sister, because that would turn the man more into domestic squabbles and less into doing God's will.
Hey, I NEVER listen to what anyone says, and I assure everyone that one thing that will NOT happen is that the women will fight each other over me, because they will both realise the one glaring truth: that they BOTH wanted the same thing but were too "formal" to be plain about it. I have rrom for both, and they will look to me, not each other...just as Michelle and her friend will, because there is no such thing as a "girl's club".That is 13 and 14.Anja and Lisa Lemoine.
15-17) There is, of course, Paula, and here, The Holy Spirit made his first obvious mistake, because he said that I should not talk her out of her relationship with her boyfriend because "God is a God of thin violence". He assumed He knew what God thought, when the only thing God had said when I thought I was really going for something I could not have was that she "had followed me drinking"...eh, He said that before she followed me when I came to drink near her place because He saw my perplexity and my mute, "Father I can not just walk away from her" interest in her.
She confirmed what I had suspected already; that the girl lived for me, and so, when I had the confirmation, I relaxed a bit. Then she decided to listen to her younger sister and her cousin...and they told her how I was probably just trying to use her to get back at the girl I had tried to hang myself over [as I mentioned earlier, I did a lot of underhanded things; I tried to destroy a girl's life so that I could have plausible reason for committing suicide...I obviously did not succed], when in actual fact the girls were themselves hot girls who felt overlooked, even though all three were involved with some other guys, guys who, curiously enough, made sure they made the girls pregnant.
I thought, "fuck this, women are stupid fools, I will have nothing to do with these three", but then, it struck me that by walking away I was leaving them in the hands of vengeful vultures who...and I will tell all women this... KNOW that they are not the number one choice of the woman and so "win" her over with reasonable words that will seem sweet but will destroy her life.
So, I am exercising my prerogative as being a lord, a som of The God most high, and claiming these three. For myslelf.
18) There is this girl also, called Anahi Fissori. More on her and others tomorrow.
